Hi guy, long time no update. I’m debating right now whether I want to delete this blog or not. I’m on the fence about this and I’m pretty much, well, leaning towards deleting it. Sure the blog was fun in its early days but now whenever I want to update it, it feels more like a chore. So I just want to say that if I do delete this blog it was fun and I’m sorry.
Title: Secrets
Genre: Smut Romance
Rating: M/MA+
Words: 542
Pairing: Jelfie
Triggers: Heavily implied smut

Read My Mind : A Namber Fanmix
Hellogoodbye → When We First Met
All I see is where our days repeat
And our love goes on
As our hair grows long
Marina & The Diamonds → Lonely Hearts Club
Lonely Hearts Club
Do you want to be with
Somebody like me?
Good Old War → Amazing Eyes
You have amazing eyes
The right one’s suspicious and the left one wants my love
Phillip Phillips → Volcano
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I’ll ask for the sea
Foster the People → Waste
I’ll hold your hand when you are feeling mad at me
Yeah when the monsters they won’t go and
Your windows won’t close
I’ll pretend
To see what you see
The XX → Angels
If someone believed me
They would be as in love with you as I am
Editors → Put Your Head Towards the Air
When you fall and you can’t find your way
Push your hand up to the sky
I will run just to, to be by your side
Don’t you ever bat an eye
Gregory and the Hawk → Boats and Birds
If your be my star
I’ll be your sky
The Killers → Read My Mind
The teenage queen, the loaded gun
The drop-dead dream, The Chosen One

N . O : A Fanmix for Jelfie
Ben Howard - Black Flies
But can’t you see?
Maybe you were the ocean when I was just a stone
Mumford & Sons - Little Lion Man
But it was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn’t I, my dear?
Marina & the Diamonds - Lies
You’re never gonna love me, so what’s the use?
What’s the point in playing a game you’re gonna lose?
What’s the point in saying you love me like a friend?
Little Scream - The Heron and the Fox
They say everything is possible… but I know that it’s not true.
Especially not when it comes to you</p>
Mumford & Sons - White Blank Page
You did not think when you sent me to the brink, the brink
You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections
The Narrative - I’ve Been Thinking
Don’t be alarmed at that the things that I’ve said, they’re only the truth love.
I know that your anxious to lay this to bed, you’re always the scared one.
Daughter - Candles
Things cannot be reversed, learn from the ones we fear the worst
And learn from the ones we hate the most how to
Angus & Julia Stone - And The Boys
It’s been days now
And you change your mind again
It feels like years,
And I can tell how time can bend your ideas
Metric - Satellite Mind
I drift into a deep fog
Lost where I forgot to hold it
I can feel you when I’m alone
Elton John - Goodbye
I’m sorry I took your time
I am the poem that doesn’t rhyme
Just turn back a page
I’ll waste away
Headcanon Series/Those little moments:
Moment One - Ep 1: Joy, Patricia, and Rom/Coms
What gets me the most, at least in my headcanon, is that the day that Joy went missing, Patricia had that Rom/Com box set for them to watch that night. Now, Patricia doesn’t look like the one to necessarily like Rom/Coms, but in my headcanon, she watches them for Joy, just to have that familiar closeness with her, huddled on their bed, sitting side by side, laughing, just so natural. That night, the day Joy went missing, she was planning on telling her that she loved her. And then she was gone and Patricia was angry. Angry at Nina, at Victor, and most importantly at herself. Because her friend is gone (and she suspects she’s dead) and she never got to tell her that she loved her, and she’ll never know. And just look at how she smiles when Joy looks so happy when she sees the box set. Look at that smile. She likes making her happy, likes seeing a smile light up her face, because she loves her.

You Are The Moon // A Joytricia Fanmix
The Hush Sound // You Are the Moon:
You don’t know what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
JayMay / / You are the Only One I Love:
And I’ve never been the one to believe in love at first sight
But now I know it exists
A Fine Frenzy / / Whisper:
But if you keep real close
Yeah, if you keep real close
I will reach you
Florence & The Machine / / You’ve Got The Love:
Sometimes I feel like saying,” Lord, I just don’t care”
But you’ve got the love I need to see me through
City and Colour / / We Found Each Other In The Dark:
So bright, the flames burned in our hearts,
That we found each other in the dark
City and Colour / / Weightless:
So stay close, remain next to me
I need to feel important
Metric / / The Wanderlust:
Will there ever be a place
For you and me?
The Kooks / / Naive:
Your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly world
Something so beautiful
Title: Private Lessons
Genre: Romance/Drama, slight Angst
Rating: M/MA +
Pairings: Ferome, Mentions of Fabina, Jara, and Jabian
Trigger Warnings: Slight non-con near the end
Joytricia AU Meme:
“Aw, Fabian wrote me a poem,” Joy coos as the paper on her clipboard. Patricia looks over, slightly alarmed (to put it in the least), whilst trying to maintain her façade of disinterest.
She waits for the statement of,’ Well, that won’t work’, or,’ Too bad for him then’, but it doesn’t come. “Oh really?” Her voice slightly cracks at the end, and Joy looks over in surprise, but smirks.
“Don’t play for the same team, but a sweet effort none the less,” Patricia exhales, shocked to see that she’d been holding her breath all this time. “You didn’t really think I’d really leave you, did you?” Joy laughs and smiles at her secret girlfriend.
“Why would I go for him when I have you?”
Joytricia AU Meme:
“Hey babe,” Joy blushed out of embarrassment and tried to move on,” Come on darling, where’re you going?” She was distressed now. The boy, new, American, spiky blonde hair, was looking her up, and she was very, very uncomfortable with this.
“I, erm, I have to,” He leaned back in his chair and laughed, still looking at her. Why wasn’t she moving? Intimidation, she settled. His whole look scared her. She didn’t like blokes in any case, and she was taken. If only she could tell him though.
From across the room, entered a red-headed girl. Her eyes focused in on her girlfriend, but then squinted as she saw the look of terror on her face. She stalked over towards her, not caring at the looks she got.
“Joy, what’s going on here?”
“He…”
“Oh, come on, it’s nothing. Just chatting a cute english girl up. Nothing illegal against that, Hermione.”
He struck a nerve. “FIrst of all, could you stop flirting with my girlfriend?” She ignored his look of confusion,” It’s called being polite.”
“Second of all, move your damn legs, people need to move around here. Again, it’s called being polite.”
“Thirdly, it’s Patricia, not Hermione, you twat, now shut the hell up. Come on Joy,” she put her arm around her girlfriend’s shoulders,” Let’s go.” And they left the blonde boy behind, slacking jaw and all.